[	Current Mood	|	mellow	]
[	Current Music	|	nico	]

I've been out walking
I don't do too much talking
These days, these days.
These days I seem to think a lot
About the things that I forgot to do
And all the times I had the chance to.

I've stopped my rambling,
I don't do too much gambling
These days, these days.
These days I seem to think about
How all the changes came about my ways
And I wonder if I'll see another highway.

I had a lover,
I don't think I'll risk another
These days, these days.
And if I seem to be afraid
To live the life that I have made in song
It's just that I've been losing so long.

I've stopped my dreaming,
I won't do too much scheming
These days, these days.
These days I sit on corner stones
And count the time in quarter tones to ten.
Please don't confront me with my failures,
I had not forgotten them. 

[	Current Mood	|	listless	]
[	Current Music	|	queen	]

i think i am done with this place.

i also think i may be too independant. but i just don't care.

little miss sunshine is the best movie in the entire world. i love it so much, i only hope that i have that brilliance in me to be able to write something that good, or even mildly comparable. writing something 1/4th as amazing would leave me thrilled beyond belief. 

i'm going to england tomorrow! what i have been talking about for the past year is happening! i'm all packed (except my underwear, which are in the laundry, but will be out by tomorrow morning), my passport is all set, i have the itinerary ready, my carry-on is almost full (just waiting for my mother to fork over the 7th harry potter. i anticipate reading it before the flight is over. c'mon, it is a 7 hour flight, i can do it), and i have my traveling outfit prepared. my lucky underwear are ready to be put to use. it should be great. 

so, see you all in a little over a week. ari vederci! 
-carol

[	Current Mood	|	peaceful	]
[	Current Music	|	Colin Hay- I just don't think I'll ever get over you	]

listening to music really makes me feel. i know everyone says that, but i feel it so dramatically sometimes. 

i want to have a new passion in my life, whether it be romantic passion or a passion for my work. even a passion for summer itself. i want it to permeate everything around me, and especially the thick wall of random and meaningless shit that surrounds my everyday life. a passion that can overthrow all else, something so grand that i can not hide it if i try to. If it is a romantic passion, i want it to do what all love does, i want it to make me forget how mundane everything is, and to make me believe that the world is perfect, if only so to accompany the loveliness that i feel. if i must quote shakespeare in love then i must, i want it to be love that overthrows life. i want nothing to seem the same afterward. if it is a passion for something else, i want it to be as strong, as ungovernable. that passion should be my spark of life, and i should act as such. i want everything i've ever seen or heard. everything that has as of yet been denied to me (and i realize that some of that is definiftely my own fault) everything that i have ever wanted should be in my grasp. i feel it so close, so ready to be taken and used as best that it can. everything seems so right, so perfect, and i want so badly to do everything that i need, all at once. i am going to do everything i have ever wanted to, and that passion for everything i do is already living in me. i love it. 

also, i got a haircut. and The Sure Thing came in at the library. it has been a busy day, and it should be a busy weekend as well. bleh, what happened to down-time? 

also, i plan on going upstairs to clean my bedroom, i will be able to see the floor again. so, i hope you all the best. i should be done cleaning my room in about three more days. no one said it was an easy job.